maybe

just something i wrote a couple of days ago.

will i ever be good enough.... for anybody. i really think he loves me but i don't think he is in love with me. and i think he cares about his friends more than he does me. i think you tell me the truth so you won't feel so guilty anymore. am i still in your life cause you feel bad? you ask if i'm mad and honestly, i don't really mind anymore cause im just a sad desperate girl deperate for love and attention & besides you love who you love and you love "her". you can't always have you you want and i can't have you. i mean i have you but not all of you. just a little part of you that wants you to care for me. the part thats only here cause its the right thing to do. i bet if she were here "we" wouldn't even exist. i would never exist to you.i try so hard to be perfect but my best isn't enough. it wont ever amount. cause i don't match your style. but it's cool, seeing you happy is all i want for you. i really hope you will be happy one day and find that special person who you really love that person who really makes you happy. maybe that person will come to me one day. maybe. but for now im just a temporary girl. it's just the truth. but i will always love you.


its not all i wanted to say but it is,