just thinking.

its december already so i have 5 months until i finally graduate from high school. im really very happy that this portion of my life is almost near an end. and the thru true part of growing up is nearing. im anticipationg the new part of my life and i cant wait to see what the future holds for me. i just hope that everything will be all  good and  i will be very successful. it won't be easy but life isn't i mean i made it this far its gonna be a long long road. all im looking forward to is going to college and graduating now. but relationship wise. im still very scared. they person i love is going away to have a much better life and i hope he does.  but i love him so much i dont want him to go or ever be away from him. i don't know what im gonna do im so afraid of the day we say goodbye cause not only is that a goodbye until next time but thats also a goodbye to the relationship we have now... forever and all that will be left is memories. but thats a big step im just not ready for. i dont think ill ever be ready for it until it comes. but yehh.